I wanna have the same last dream again,
the one where I wake up and I'm alive.
Just as the four walls close me within,
my eyes are opened up with pure sunlight.
I'm the first to know,
my dearest friends,
even if your hope has burned with time,
anything that's dead shall be re-grown,
and your vicious pain, your warning sign,
you will be fine.

Hey, yo - here I am,
and here we go,
life's waiting to begin.

The Adventure Angels and Airwaves

i wont say i dun feel anything about failing to achieve the top 2 things i set out to achieve since the beginning of the year.
i wont say i'm not dissapointed.
i wont say i'm not torn and heartbroken.
i wont say i accepted readily the way things turned out.
because that will be lying.

of course i cried
of course i screamed and raged (within)
of course i felt victimised
of course i let irrationality take over and hated her, hated them

but now, standing where i am, i can testify to the fact that time heals.
with time, you ponder over everything that ever was and realise how selfish you have been, how blinded by a desire for personal glory, how you failed to put God first in all that you set out to do.

yang, this is a wake up call.

remember how u commited the first race ever in your life into God's hands and expected nothing out of it;
remember how you believed wholeheartedly in God to give you all that you need to just do reasonably well, and yet how excessively He provided.
remember that, that's all there is, that's all there should be.

you are after something that stays golden for eternity.

yes, it took not just one, but two hard falls to make you realise this but God's lesson should stay with you from now on.

you have no more strength than that which you draw from God.
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this CT will be a crucial one. i am determined to exceptionally well with the help of God. i cant say i'm confident that i will achieve that at this point in time because my recent results have been more than disappointing but i should draw on the women's open experience and commit it all into God's hands.

my mother will not have a chance to force me out of canoeing.
go to, then; your considerate stone.
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